Saturn Return

Shit, it’s been a minute
since I spilled some ink
too busy spilling drinks

I can’t tell if I want to give myself up
to the internet
or unplug my entire life
line. I’m lying I’ve been giving it up
since I was a baby
watching what I couldn’t comprehend
vh1, the girls next door
silver in my eyes at the video store

If you’re always on the move
you’re never really lost
I left them all behind
and now they’re lost
Keep pretending you’re free
see how much it costs

Took 27 years to find my voice
but what is there to say
about the climate the riot the war
and all the things I forgot

Life got a lot better when I took my foot of the gas
One day at a time
Just watch it all go by
Leila told me to stop trying to be happy all the time
Its raining on vacation
and if anyone knew the thoughts in my head
they’d stop wondering
why I’m quiet at parties
shit, they wouldn’t invite me in
but its 2022 and there’s no time for shame
too much to lose
who knows how much time we got left
still suicidal but I could use a little help
killing off the voice in my head
but when everybody’s gone
sometimes he’s the only one left.