Rule Myself
I wasn’t ruling myself out
I just wanted to rule
myself. Not be ruled by
anything else.
Not the cowering fear
Not the vanity mirrors
Not the thoughts of my peers
Nothing insincere
Not my self doubt
Not my tendency to pout
Not when nothing’s wrong
Not by someone else’s song
I just wanted to rule
myself. Not be ruled by
anything else.
Wanted to plow my own fields
Wanted to grow my own meals
Wanted to give, not steal
Wanted to know how it feels
To be an orange covered by its peel
You believe in God but you have no faith in me
I worked valiantly so that I could be
Someone that I could see you with,
Maple tree
Peach and ginger tea
Despite our history
Through the mystery
To love with no shame
To fuck wild, untamed
To stop pointing the blame
To burn my own flame
I don’t believe that you don’t love me
I can see it in your eyes
I don’t believe that you don’t love me
I think you’re just too scared to try
I don’t believe that you don’t love me
That’s what you decided to decide
I don’t believe that you don’t love me
But I won’t wait by your side
Hoping you change your mind
Watching you date another guy
Missing the parts you hide
It’s one thing to be denied
But why’d you have to lie?
Only out of self-respect
Your middle finger to the world,
Kindness with a defect,
I can live without that, girl
As my eyes are uncovered by time
I can see we’re guilty of the same crimes
Reaching for the fruit
After hacking at the roots
I wasn’t ruling myself out
The weeds were choking the seeds
I knew what they’d need to breathe
You didn’t believe in me
So less and less you’ll see