My Beloved

I prepared myself for my Beloved. 

I bathed for 6 days in potions

That turned my skin to silk

And my hair to feather.

I shaved the excess and cut away

the unruly. I uncovered my eyes

unplugged my ears

All for my Beloved. 

I quieted my mind for my Beloved. 

walked for miles in silence

listening to the call of crows

calling out to their Beloved. 

I sat beneath an evergreen

stared at bold stars 

that only reminded me of my Beloved. 

I filled notebooks with words to say

To my Beloved. 

The vastness of space, the depths of the ocean

were all to be filled by my Beloved. 

Then came my Beloved

Melody and mystery swirled about her

Tranquility radiated from her gaze

She was unmoved 

by my spirit.

I was to be expected

By my Beloved

So now I learn to live without

My Beloved

I am well accustomed to longing

Suffering can be swallowed

When thought of as sacrifice

But not without hope. 

I am free

Without needing to please

My Beloved.