Last Storm

From the bottom of the ocean
I see creatures
that have never gone to sleep indoors
stingrays lay on the floor
the cetacean never truly falls asleep
Left brain right brain
will you please keep me sane?
I want to rise to the surface
Not feel so worthless
No purpose in this town
If I can’t find a reason
I might as well just drown

I woke up underwater
I was breathing fish breath
We had a good thing going
but of course it left
Maybe I’ll call my sister
tell her what I need to say
but goddamn it
I’m not leaving bed today

My body is injured
maybe my mind is too
I tried to count my blessings
but I get so confused
Are we living or dying
how long will this go on
Everyone I meet
shows their beauty
then they’re gone

What’s it like to leave?
What’s it like to stay?
What’s the difference?
end up alone anyway
make yourself a playlist
let your hair go long
I’ve always loved dancing
I just hate this song

Lessons I’ve learned
Are candles burned
Once the verdict’s given
then the court’s adjourned=
This shit’s on repeat
but I never learn the beat
So I’ll go on declaring defeat
Bury myself in the sheets

I was laying in bed
writhing in pain
wondering how long
my body would remain
before the neighbors complained
of the smell in apartment M
I wondered who might make the call
and what they’d have to say
but then I heard the rain
not today
not today
not today

It’s California’s last storm
a little late in the year
in every drop it’s clear
another reason to be here